Dude! It's been forever. Or at least it seems that way because I don't post any entry's on here. I've been quite busy with school, friends, family, movie making, reading, writing, singing, and Vlogging on YouTube. Fun stuff. Anyway, a lot has happend, some not so good and some great. I'm happy where I am right now in my life. School will be ending in less then a month and I am off then to summer school because Math and I have decided not to be friends...therefore not passing. But, I will be a 17 year old, May 29th and then in July I shall be a senior in high school. Wow. I'm getting older and growing up. I'm making big choices with big plans and hopefully not so big mistakes. I can only hope and pray, right? I've been trying to enjoy my friends' company and school all together because this year has been the toughest out of my entire schooling career. Lots of things lay out in front of me and my future seems vague yet broad. I know I'm cutting this short, but I'll write more later. It's not like anyone reads these anyway :]

Thanks to anyone who has though,

Christina

Isn't it great to feel like you're apart of something that is really big? That's how it feels to me right now. I love the book series Twilight, which most people know about it, even if not ever reading it. I am ashamed to say that I was one of 'those' people who was opposed to reading Twilight just because everyone else was. But, boredom overcame me and I decided to read it. I was so wrapped up in the story after the first few pages. It's quite the book. I was not able to be one of the first people to fall into Harry Potter. But Twilight feels more like my time. I get to follow it from the very beginning all the way to the very end, whenever that may be. I'm proud to be a fan and I can't wait to see what further books hold (hoping there are more books after the fourth). Stephenie Meyer accomplished the most important thing when it comes to writing books; she was able to place me in a different time and place with new friends and foes. I love the adventures of Bella Swan because I relate to her so much. I can't wait to see the movie even though I disagree with some of the casting and the fact that they changed a few scenes. But, the movie is the books little sister, or at least that's the way I look at it. They are two different things, so to compare them would be ridiculous. Anyway, I haven't written anything in a long while. Glad to find another book series to fall in love with.

Also, I highly recommend the Sookie Stackhouse series by Charlaine Harris. 

Other news: I was able to meet Libba Bray, author of the series A Great And Terrible Beauty, at my high school the other day. She is such a genuine and funny person. I can't wait to start reading her work. I got her autograph so that was awesome! 

Greetings and salutations,

Christina

Dreams: an experience of waking life, having the characteristics of a dream: as a: a visionary creation of the imagination.

In other words, dreams aren't real. No matter how hard you try, reality is always close by with its' pitch fork and pointy tail. I have so many dreams, so many hopes. I feel like they escape me. They're always right there in front me, I know it! But, to far away for my grasps. I try so hard, give everything that I am, and it's just. not. good enough. That simple, that sad. I'm just not good enough. That's what it means. "Yes, Christina, please, try as hard as you can, get your hopes as high as the sky! Please! I want to crush them!" 

And it does, that damned reality. There so many things I want to be. So many places to see; things to do! I want and want and want so much! It's to the point where I feel like I need these certain things, my only source of happiness. My family and friends bring an indescribable light into my dark world, but there is always a point in time when you want to feel independent. I want to know that I did something for myself, something real. I want to feel the hardship with out the 'hard' though. I want the prize without the work. Ah, how easy life would be if such a thing existed; easiness. 

Change:  to make radically different. to transform.

Nothing really ever changes. Nothing ever really will. I won't change, you won't change; nothing. By the way, I very much dislike the word change.

Grow: to spring up and develop to maturity. (exact definition, no lie)

We will all grow. Grow into people that may or may not be something we wanted to be or even expected to be. I truly and honestly want to be happy. But I certainly have some growing up to do before I can have that unbelievable feeling of accomplishing something for my own. At least, I think so. 

God speed,

Christina S.

In a week I will officially be a Junior in high school...yay...

I'm not sure if I want to grow up yet (like I have a choice). I'm so use to being a 'kid' and now I have so much responsibility heading my way, what with driving, school, going to college soon, maybe even moving out of the house in two years. I'm just not sure anymore. I remember always thinking, "Man, I can't wait til I'm older so I can go where I want and do what I want, it's gonna be great!". Yeah, well, I'm not so convinced these days haha. I will be the first in my family to go to college. I really want to make my family proud of me. I want them to see that they raised their children to do wonderful things and to become great people. They never could go to college because their families never had enough money. But now, they have made enough to be able to send me into college without a scholarship (course one of those would help haha). I want to go to film school, and they're all for me going! They believe in my skills and talent (dare I say I have any). I'm so blessed to have a family who is so supportive of everything I do and who will always love me even when I fail at things. 

Guess, I shouldn't be so unsure of growing up with such a great support system, eh? 



-Christina.